eating disorder logic
- me: i can't eat that cake
- me: eats a slice
- me: damage is done, let me have 5 more
- me: realises what i've done
- me: eats another slice because angry
january 2013: this shall be my year
may 2013: well, shit
It is all your fault.
I was always fucked up. I’ll give you that. But you made me SO much worse. I had stopped throwing up. I’ve now done it multiple times a day, at least, since September. It has never been that bad before. I literally live in a constant state of anxiety. I can’t do it anymore. I can’t be around you. I can’t even look at you without feeling anger, resentment, and sadness. Seriously, get out of my life. You have ruined everything and I am literally so far gone into this hell hole of my eating disorder that I feel there is nothing anyone can do to fix it. Fuck you and thanks for making me relapse and ruining my life.